Comments on: 1967 http://3500years.com/zsallia/2005/08/09/1967/ 3500 years of life Mon, 29 Jun 2009 17:00:06 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0 By: Zsallia http://3500years.com/zsallia/2005/08/09/1967/comment-page-1/#comment-375 Zsallia Fri, 12 Aug 2005 21:23:31 +0000 http://3500years.com/zsallia/?p=181#comment-375 I will be in Cincinnati tomorrow afternoon. I am closing these posts. Anything more we have to say to one another we will say in person. I will be in Cincinnati tomorrow afternoon. I am closing these posts. Anything more we have to say to one another we will say in person.

]]> By: D http://3500years.com/zsallia/2005/08/09/1967/comment-page-1/#comment-374 D Fri, 12 Aug 2005 00:19:54 +0000 http://3500years.com/zsallia/?p=181#comment-374 It never, ever ends with you does it? It never, ever ends with you does it?

]]> By: Zsallia http://3500years.com/zsallia/2005/08/09/1967/comment-page-1/#comment-373 Zsallia Wed, 10 Aug 2005 21:30:04 +0000 http://3500years.com/zsallia/?p=181#comment-373 Allison- Why love? Because I am not immune to loneliness. It makes me foolish. I resist as I can, but here, in this case, it truly caught me unawares. Why open this wound? I did not open it, rather a third party did. We are merely completing events set in motion by someone well-meaning, but faultlessly ignorant. Drowning nearly did end my life so very long ago. I believe that episode was as close as I have ever come to dying. That experience taught me I am not indestructible. A fall from that bridge into the rapids below might have done enough damage, but it might not. As I noted- it was not fear of death which stayed me, it was fear of failure at dying. I have opined on the topic of suicide before. For some reason I do not fully grasp, I have yet to make a serious attempt. It has been suggested by others that all of this open revelation is just a round-about attempt to accomplish that goal. For with it may be worth, I do believe they are wrong. Allison-

Why love? Because I am not immune to loneliness. It makes me foolish. I resist as I can, but here, in this case, it truly caught me unawares.

Why open this wound? I did not open it, rather a third party did. We are merely completing events set in motion by someone well-meaning, but faultlessly ignorant.

Drowning nearly did end my life so very long ago. I believe that episode was as close as I have ever come to dying. That experience taught me I am not indestructible. A fall from that bridge into the rapids below might have done enough damage, but it might not. As I noted- it was not fear of death which stayed me, it was fear of failure at dying.

I have opined on the topic of suicide before. For some reason I do not fully grasp, I have yet to make a serious attempt. It has been suggested by others that all of this open revelation is just a round-about attempt to accomplish that goal.

For with it may be worth, I do believe they are wrong.

]]> By: Zsallia http://3500years.com/zsallia/2005/08/09/1967/comment-page-1/#comment-372 Zsallia Wed, 10 Aug 2005 21:18:05 +0000 http://3500years.com/zsallia/?p=181#comment-372 I know precisely what I did to you- I set you free. Had I taken any other course you would have sought me out, and as the years passed love would have turned to poison. I have been in this place before, Dalene. I know it well. I know precisely what I did to you- I set you free. Had I taken any other course you would have sought me out, and as the years passed love would have turned to poison.

I have been in this place before, Dalene. I know it well.

]]> By: Allison http://3500years.com/zsallia/2005/08/09/1967/comment-page-1/#comment-371 Allison Wed, 10 Aug 2005 20:12:26 +0000 http://3500years.com/zsallia/?p=181#comment-371 There you go again, making even heartbreak and faked suicide sound like elegant poetry. Your writing style is georgeous. Seriously, though- to me, this just begs questions, why start such a meaningful relationship, knowing how relationships tend to end for you? That sounds very masochistic. And why would you go through so much pain for the better good of your loved one, only to open the wound up again after so many years? (Inferring that's what you're doing here). Lastly, why would jumping in a river be enough to kill you? You've got a story on here where drowning in the sea didn't do it. There you go again, making even heartbreak and faked suicide sound like elegant poetry. Your writing style is georgeous. Seriously, though- to me, this just begs questions, why start such a meaningful relationship, knowing how relationships tend to end for you? That sounds very masochistic. And why would you go through so much pain for the better good of your loved one, only to open the wound up again after so many years? (Inferring that’s what you’re doing here). Lastly, why would jumping in a river be enough to kill you? You’ve got a story on here where drowning in the sea didn’t do it.

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