Comments on: Things I wish I had told you… November, 1964 http://3500years.com/zsallia/2008/02/07/thing-i-wish-i-had-told-you-november-1964/ 3500 years of life Mon, 29 Jun 2009 17:00:06 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 hourly 1 By: D http://3500years.com/zsallia/2008/02/07/thing-i-wish-i-had-told-you-november-1964/comment-page-1/#comment-490 D Wed, 13 Feb 2008 01:53:46 +0000 http://3500years.com/zsallia/2008/02/07/thing-i-wish-i-had-told-you-november-1964/#comment-490 But it didn't stick, did it? What happened? That's all I want to know. What made you throw us all away? But it didn’t stick, did it? What happened? That’s all I want to know. What made you throw us all away?

]]> By: Zsallia http://3500years.com/zsallia/2008/02/07/thing-i-wish-i-had-told-you-november-1964/comment-page-1/#comment-489 Zsallia Tue, 12 Feb 2008 02:26:43 +0000 http://3500years.com/zsallia/2008/02/07/thing-i-wish-i-had-told-you-november-1964/#comment-489 Nothing was simple back then, remember? What if I had told you that night, or the next? All of you were still balanced on the knife's edge, and you were right- I was standing outside looking in. I did not want to be there, circumstances simply force my hand as they so often do. Had I told you, and had you believed me, how long would it have been before the lies I told spawned anger in you? How long before you began to wonder just what I was looking for? And had you decided I was either lying to you or was deluded, how long before you would fear you could no longer trust me? Either way, the truth would have broken the spell of unity that surrounded us. That night, when you took my place and forced me to stand in yours, you drew me back inside. You reminded me why I was there, why I cared so much and you showed me why I was so wrong to do what I did. Nothing was simple back then, remember? What if I had told you that night, or the next? All of you were still balanced on the knife’s edge, and you were right- I was standing outside looking in. I did not want to be there, circumstances simply force my hand as they so often do.

Had I told you, and had you believed me, how long would it have been before the lies I told spawned anger in you? How long before you began to wonder just what I was looking for? And had you decided I was either lying to you or was deluded, how long before you would fear you could no longer trust me?

Either way, the truth would have broken the spell of unity that surrounded us. That night, when you took my place and forced me to stand in yours, you drew me back inside. You reminded me why I was there, why I cared so much and you showed me why I was so wrong to do what I did.

]]> By: D http://3500years.com/zsallia/2008/02/07/thing-i-wish-i-had-told-you-november-1964/comment-page-1/#comment-488 D Mon, 11 Feb 2008 01:13:03 +0000 http://3500years.com/zsallia/2008/02/07/thing-i-wish-i-had-told-you-november-1964/#comment-488 You should have told me. I’d have thought you were crazy but it wouldn’t have mattered. You should have told me. I’d have thought you were crazy but it wouldn’t have mattered.

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